EVEN THIS

Some songs make me sad.

Every time I listen to Phir Dhekiye from Rock On in a car, I feel sad.

Today I listened to a song from Wake Up Sid in a car and inexplicably, I felt sad. Terribly terribly sad.

The strange thing here is that I am essentially a freakishly happy person. Life is miserable and unfair and hard but it's also ridiculously funny. So I laugh. But today, I couldn't. I sat in that car and felt shivers down my spine and I just couldn't.

Nostalgia, man. So many things in such a short span of time that will never ever be the same again. I love change but this is messed up, there are some things that I don't want to change, have never wanted to change so drastically and so... finally. It's terminal, and it's killing me. Today I can't blame shit on anyone, not Murphy, not God. Just people. People I love, people I hate. People who went and changed my whole life around, twisted me, moulded me, made me laugh, change my mind, laughed because of me, and now it's come full circle and it will never be the fucking same again. Everything's gone too fast and gone too soon.

C'est la fucking vie, and it's a twisted, cruel, thing of beauty. Smile.